Put off because two monstrous gray clouds followed me around the neighborhood this evening
Never mind the cracks of bright blue, surely these bring rain.
However sunlight remained.
And is still here even though
Guilt that there is daylight still,keeps me awake and mostly clothed.
Even though I have descended onto the couch and am pinned down by a blanket
Which is pinned down by a cat because
Despite the persistent sunlight
My house is cold and the cat likes this particular blanket.
My mind says “You are tired. Go take a bath. You deserve it.”
But there is sunlight so
I can tally all the minutiae of the day that started at 5:40 a.m. before the problematic sunlight
The rush to work to give the two hour standardized test that can only happen on iPads which can only function with wifi which is not made by sunlight
The off kilter sense of the day with a shortened class schedule because of the two hour test
All classes but the one class. Oh that one class.
And I am just
But probably not as tired as my friend who had yet another cancer treatment today.
Who is probably glad to see and feel the longer lasting sunlight.
Not so tired that I can’t make something new for dinner -shrimp and broccoli- while
Maintaining a constant loop of an imaginary conversation with a student who claims she is skipping my class because we are doing presentations.
We aren’t even doing them yet.
It is exhausting because I don’t feel like fighting a battle that I will lose.
I feel like ignoring the bullshit of teenagers because they think
Sunlight shines out of their asses.
It shines out of the sky and is still here which means
I should be grateful for another sunny day and not
And wondering if the cat wants to get high on the nip
So that we can both go to sleep after the sunlight leaves.